redshiftrp | @Pratt

For starters I'm a Deputy not a mobster. And also no they're very much not domesticated.

It's a long story and you're probably not gonna believe me.

So to sum up: Doritos y/n?

You know you wanna pet a wolf. She's white and fluffy and just got a bath.

Deputy of what?

That's assuming a lot. You don't know me. I'm capable of believing some wild shit.

Well... let's go with 'm' for maybe. What are your feelings on off-brand chips?

I actually super don't wanna pet a wolf, thanks. I like having two hands.

Hope County, Montana.

The Herald of Eden's Gate drugged them with a serum that made them obedient and smart. He used them to hunt down Sinners.

But I'm trying to retrain her on hunting down junk food. Results are mixed.

How generic we talking? Store brand or just "CHIPS"?

I was expecting you to say Mars, no joke.

Sounds like a hectic week. I'm guessing from the capitalization that Sinners means something different than a sinner. Unless someone was trying to genetically alter wolves to attack cheating spouses or whatever.

Knock-off, not store brand. Found some in an old break room. Jalapeño though, not ranch.

Edited 2019-07-13 03:33 (UTC)

yeah and it's A LOT so lets put that off so I don't sound like a complete crazy person two seconds into this conversation.

I will happily accept jalapeño chips. At this point I might be desperate enough to try those Lays Biscuit & Gravy flavor.

Maybe.

Okay likely not.

But I'd at least smell them.

I'm capable of believing a lot without jumping to conclusions, but I get it.

Those exist? That flavor seems ill-advised.

Where should I bring them for you? No wolf petting necessary.

[ After a pause, a follow-up: ]

It might be cool to just SEE a wolf though. Never actually been to a zoo.

I don't think anyone eats them but they definitely exist. Runners up for terrible chip flavors:

Pizza
Pickles
Beer
Chicken & Waffles
Ketchup
Macaroni and Cheese
Coffee

I'm down by what I guess was a fountain maybe.

Beer? But WHY?

[ Ben has never tried any of these novel chip flavors, and he'd only tried a sip of beer once or twice before he died, but he remembers it being absolutely repulsive. ]

In the park? I think I know where that is. Headed there.

Someone's eating it I guess? Maybe it's exclusively for probie hazing. Make the new guy eat a full bag of gravy flavored chips.

Fraternity stuff or something.

Yeah. The wolf is sleeping, so you're not gonna get eaten.

Is that a big enough market that it's really worth it?

[ Ben doesn't know anything about fraternities or what a 'probie' even is, but he and his siblings (well, just the brothers if he's being honest) had dared each other to eat some pretty disgusting nonsense when they were kids, so he gets the general gist. ]

Be there soon.

[ And Ben is true to his word, strolling along a little while later, his hood up and the bag of chips held loosely in one hand. When he spots Pratt, he holds up the chips, giving them a little triumphant sake in the air. Once he's close enough, he tosses the chips over. ]

They might be a little expired but I figure we're all way beyond worrying about that.

[Its probably not. But he doesn't understand marketing. Who the hell wants peanut butter and jelly in the same jar? And thats a thing that exists. ]

Yeah I'm so far past caring if these are stale as hell.

[He opens the bag with the reassuring foil crinkle of chip bags that he's sorely missed. Pulling one out he offers it to the sleeping wolf under the bench who sniffs it, snarls, and goes back to her nap.]

Fine. More for me.

[Doesn't taste half bad. If this was supposed to be spicy apparently that expired as well, but its a chip and he's happy. He holds the open bag out.]

Wanna try? They're not bad. I dunno if I'd call this flavor jalapeño but its decent.

[ Ben watches the interaction with the wolf, a little worried despite the Deputy's words that she is going to just snap and bite his hand off or something. But the animal seems docile enough, and much more concerned with sleeping than with chips or this stranger who has walked up to speak to her human.

When Pratt offers him a chip from the bag, Ben shrugs, reaches in for one. They are, in fact, a touch stale, but they're still, indeed, decent. Ben chews thoughtfully before saying: ]

You know, I just realized I don't think I remember what actual jalapeños taste like.

[ Ben realizes a moment too late that that's probably actually a pretty weird thing to say. He still sucks at this whole talking to strangers thing. Klaus had told him he just needs practice. Which sounds good in theory, but it's hard to know what to say. ]

Cool that your pet got to come with you.

[ Oh yeah, scintillating conversation starter. He's doing great. ]

I've only ever had them canned so I dunno what fresh ones taste like. No one really grows peppers in Montana.

She's... Not really a pet. And also not mine.

[Ah awkwardness all around.]

She belongs to Jacob Seed, Herald of Eden's Gate.

[Thats not weird. Oh no, don't mention the cult to random strangers. Abort abort.]

Uhm. It's a long story. I guess she's mine now though. That's good.

Jacob is a monster.

[ It's strange how much Ben has already adjusted to being in a place with people from all kinds of different worlds. Some part of his brain just starts automatically cataloguing apparently similarities and differences. Montana existing had already been one, and knowing that he's from a world with canned food and Doritos is another.

Something the world's definitely don't have in common is this Herald of Eden's Gate, who apparently is a dude named Jacob. Ben's not going to get out his phone to check (and definitely not going to ask) but he's almost positive that was the one who Pratt had said was drugging wolves and using them to hunt capital-s-Sinners. Which is already starting to sound like a whole lot of fucked up.

Despite his social awkwardness, Ben thinks he can spot a topic somebody's trying to avoid. There are tones of voice for saying 'it's a long story' which mean 'reassure me you're not going to get bored because I want to tell it to you', and there are tones of voice for saying 'it's a long story' which mean 'please don't make me talk about it'. This seems more like the latter, and what the Deputy says a moment later about this Jacob guy only reinforces that. ]

Gotcha.

[ That further contextualizes the whole wolf-training thing. Ben glances down to where the animal is sleeping. Honestly, he just came here to give a guy some knock-off Doritos and he's pretty sure that if the long story involves some dude doing fucked up experiments on animals or training them to kill or both he definitely one hundred thousand percent does not want to hear it, no thank you. ]

In that case, I'm glad she's got somebody better to look after her.

[ Ben isn't sure how safe this place would be, even for an unusually intelligent wolf, but it sounds like it's a better situation than wherever they were coming from.

A thought occurs to him and Ben asks: ]

He's not here, right? This Jacob guy?

[ It's worth asking, and if some creep is going to be trying to start trouble then Ben wants to know in advance. There aren't a lot of people in this place, and if any of them are monstrous (in the ways that count)... well, best to be proactive about it. ]

[He hadn't actually considered that. That things were better for the wolf with her being here instead of in Jacob's care. So he gives a lopsided kind of grin as he looks at her while she snoozes.]

Yeah I guess so, huh. She likes me cuz I fed them and gave 'em skritches, so she's gonna get a shit ton more of that if I can find her some decent meat. Maybe undo some of that shitty training.

[So yes, fucked up experiments and training them to kill. But his happiness at being able to help the wolf is short lived because he looks downright petrified with what Ben asks next.]

No.

I mean I don't think so. He'd have shown himself by now if he was. At least I think he would have. Unless he's waiting to strike or killing people we didn't even know were here.

Shit.

Maybe?

I have no idea.

Fuck.

[ Ben gets that Pratt's probably smiling mostly because he's thinking about his wolf companion, and clearly there is a lot of affection between them. But still, after a decade and a half of no one being able to see or hear him, never interacting with anyone apart from his brother... being even tangentially responsible for making someone smile is a really, really nice feeling. He's going to have to try to do that again. With Pratt, and others, too. Ben had forgotten how much he liked making people smile.

And he has that brief moment of feeling really glad he'd answered this man's messages and brought him chips, because he's looking after this animal and trying to undo shitty training from a shitty person. And then, in his attempt to make sure nothing would happen to endanger this change for the better, Ben makes a big mistake.

The change in Pratt is immediate and devastating. He looks so scared and Ben wants to jump back in time, to take back the question. Finding out the answer is still important - even more important now that he sees how intensely even the possibility seems to be fucking Pratt up. But he could find other ways of doing that rather than just asking.

In the soothing voice he is so used to using when Klaus is having a bad trip or a flashback or generally panicking, Ben interrupts Pratt's spiraling: ]

Whoa, whoa- let's slow down, okay? We can find out. I'm certain there are ways we can find out for sure, even though he probably isn't here like you said, and then you'll know. And the only reason I asked is 'cause, if he were - and I'm not saying he is! But if he ever did turn up, I asked because I'm good at taking care of monsters.

Edited 2019-07-21 22:42 (UTC)

[Pratt's agitation has alerted the wolf who jumps up onto the bench to sit next to him. He reaches out a hand to bury in her fur to ground himself because he didn't realize that just the thought of Jacob showing up again would mess him up quite this bad.]

Right. Yeah that's.. I think we'd know.

He'd probably have made some broadcast on the network about hunting me down by now. And he hasn't so.. then he's probably not here.

[Pratt swallows hard, eyeing Ben.]

Yeah?

[ Ben tenses when the wolf wakes up and comes closer, thinking at first that she somehow knows Ben said something to upset Pratt, that she will retaliate for that. He'd said she was more intelligent than usual wolves, after all, and Ben doesn't know how far that might extend.

But instead she just sits by Pratt, and Ben watches the man using her to anchor himself. He recognizes that's what is happening, and his mood shifts to gratitude. He may have been through situations similar to this with his brother, but that's different. Ben knows Klaus. He knows how to help him, what to say, what sets him off, what memories he can get lost in. Pratt is still a stranger. ]

Exactly. The Anchor isn't that big and there aren't that many of us. It'd be super hard for someone to go completely unnoticed.

[ Hunt him down? Jesus. This guy sounds like an absolute nutcase. Ben doesn't know what Pratt might have done to get himself in the capital-s-Sinner category (that was who he said Jacob hunted right?), but he doesn't need to know. He has stumbled into this very private thing, this fear that gripped Pratt so suddenly, and now Ben just wants to protect him. So he doesn't lie, or shift the subject. ]

Yeah.

[ Ben's gaze is steady; not boastful, not aggressive, but calm. Certain, with a hint of melancholy in it. Ben's not invincible, but he has a realistic grasp of his own ability to kill. This Jacob Seed guy might have a lot of skills, maybe even powers, but Ben could probably take him down. If it came to it. ]

... You don't need to be afraid of me. But if anyone like him shows up or- or anybody in this place starts hurting people, and they won't stop... they do.

Yeah. I haven't explored all of it, but it's not that big for someone to hide for very long. At least not if they want to eat.

[Which may or may not be a problem for Jacob, starvation was his favorite torture technique and he'd done a lot of it himself. He might have trained himself to go for inhuman amounts of time without food for all Pratt knows. It wouldn't surprise him anyway. But just the thought that there was less of a chance for him to be here is doing a lot to put Pratt at ease.]

How do you know I'm not a monster too?

[Because there are definitely days that Pratt dwells on all he's done and thinks that maybe he is. Maybe he deserved this. Maybe Jacob was right]

Mhm. And you know, I've been thinking... some kind of official welcome and registration, near that place we all got decontaminated and whatever... that way we could catalogue who shows up. In case any friends or, yeah, enemies arrive.

[ It isn't a plan Ben had been thinking about before literally this moment as he's speaking, but he backdates the idea in order to pretend it isn't just in response to Pratt's panic. It is a good idea regardless, Ben thinks. Pratt having such an unexpectedly strong reaction is just what suggested it to him. But the fact is he is going to want to know if any of his siblings show up. Or his dad, or this Jacob, or a well-known serial killer or something.

Ben doesn't just tell Pratt that he knows he isn't a monster. Maybe it would be easy and reassuring, but it wouldn't be true. He taps his chin, a small furrow forming between his brows. Slowly, he says: ]

That's a good question. I don't, yet.

[ Ben folds his arms over his chest, balancing his desire to be honest with his realistic worry that telling the full truth might fully freak Pratt out again. Ben knows he is a frightening creature. He doesn't want to terrify Pratt any more, now that he did it once unintentionally. But at the same time, he wants to respect him enough to really consider the question. ]

Part of it depends how you define monster. You might think I was a monster, if you knew more about me. I've- [ A pause, as Ben bites the inside of his lip and considers his words ] -had some shitty training I'm undoing, too.

[ The implication, there, if Pratt draws it out, is that there are similarities between himself and the wolf, who had been trained by a monster to kill. Which is not, after all, an entirely inaccurate description of how Ben was raised. Pratt isn't afraid of the wolf, though. So perhaps... he won't flee from Ben outright, even now that he's suggested this thing about himself. ]

And for what it's worth, I suspect you're not a monster. I'm not certain, of course, but-

[ A longer pause. Ben's face has gone still and unreadable. There is discomfort, though, in his body language: he shifts his weight from foot to foot, gives away some level of inner anxiety through the self-soothing gesture of rubbing the back of his neck with his hand. ]

-I've. In my experience. You can tell a lot about a person. By how they treat animals.

[ And Ben looks at the wolf who had moved in close when Pratt was upset, who had been willing to sleep next to him before, calm and easy in his presence. From the sound of it, Jacob was someone who was cruel to animals, and cruel to other humans as well. Ben knows, intimately, that those two things often go hand in hand. ]

[He stares in surprise before looking away. Some of that hits a little too close to home. 'Shitty training' yeah, that's one way he could put it about himself as well. His fingers find some of the patchiness in the wolf's fur, areas where the serum had made it fall out, places where she was scarred and it didn't grow anymore.]

Some people see animals as a tool, a means to an end.

[He pats her side as she jumps down and goes to sniff Ben's feet.]

Shitty training huh? Yeah I've... I can understand that. It sorta gets better. With time.

[That's about the most optimistic he's been in months. Being in this place is like a second second chance at atonement and getting his shit back together for however long he has before he inevitably goes back to right where he was before he left.

Strapped to a chair and hours from death.]

I've been a monster. But I'm not much of anything anymore.

[ Ben stays perfectly still as the wolf sniffs at him; she still makes him a little nervous. Not so much now because she's a wolf and he thinks she will attack, but what if she can smell that there is something off about him? Something not entirely human? So he just freezes and lets her get as good a smell as she wants, and hopes the smells from the places he's been in the Anchor will be distracting enough. ]

You can?

[ He doesn't mean to say it aloud; the words just slip out. Not because he doesn't believe Pratt, but because... well, it's not often Ben meets anyone who has experiences similar to his own. There has always been this gulf, between him and his siblings and everyone else. Even the ones whose lives were shitty, they were usually shitty in such different ways that it felt impossible to relate, bridge that gulf.

Ben wonders, but absolutely does not say out loud, if Jacob was involved here, too. That's not something to just ask somebody. He's not going to go poking at any more wounds intentionally, thanks. He just... files this away, for later. And wonders. ]

It does. Most days anyway.

[ Ben does have a brief, slightly nauseous moment when a little voice in the back of his head whispers that it only gets better if you deal with it, and being dead has given him a very good excuse all these years to not deal with his bullshit. Instead he kept himself busy with Klaus's addiction and worrying about his other siblings and trying to do what he can to keep all them safe. Just so he doesn't have to look at himself, at all. But he shoves that thought aside. ]

I don't know about that. [ Ben doesn't dispute that he has been a monster. At least not directly. Maybe once he knows the guy better he will ask what he meant, and then decide for himself. For now, though, he focuses on the latter half of that statement. ] You're the first guy I ever met from Montana. You're um, a deputy. You're a guy with a wolf. A guy who really digs Doritos. That's not nothing.

[ He hasn't exactly got a rich well of details to draw from here but he works with what he's learned already. ]

And the rest you get to decide for yourself.

Yeah. Believe me I can relate.

[He doesn't elaborate, and he's not going to unless prompted. Instead he snaps his fingers, calling the wolf away from where she's pressing her snout into Ben's ankles. It seems he smells interesting and she thinks shoving her nose into his leg will make the sniffs all the better.]

Don't make me the Montana ambassador. I'm not cut out for that. Can't really sell you on the hunting and fishing and hang gliding if you're never gonna be able to see it because we're stuck here.

[He snorts at that, shaking his head.]

Get to try and fuck up shit for myself you mean. I'm sure I'll get to that in a few days when we're all starting to go stir crazy in here.

Don't worry. In case you couldn't tell, I'm not really the huntin' and fishin' type.

[ And Ben gives a little sardonic gesture to himself, though it would be hard to say exactly what the joke is about - his appearance, his clothing, his demeanor... any one of them don't really fit in with the stereotype of someone who would really enjoy the outdoorsy Montana activities Pratt mentioned.

Ben sticks his hands into his pockets, giving a shrug. It's possible they will all go stir crazy in a bit. But... ]

So far, stuck here's not any worse than stuck where I came from. [ A beat, as Ben decides whether or not he's going to add what he adds a moment later: ] Actually, it's better. I'm alive, here.

[ So... there's that. ]

I'm pretty sure fucking up's a necessary part of it. But I'd rather... fuck up figuring out who I am on my own than be flawless at... at being someone else's perfect tool.

[ It's not exactly hope Ben is offering, but the idea that freedom is better even if it means making your own mistakes. That had taken him a few years, to actually believe. ]

It's kind of relaxing. Fishing is I mean, hunting isn't really. You just sit there and watch the wind in the trees and the ripples in the lake and don't have to think about problems or work or life or much of anything.

[Pratt looks down at the wolf, stroking her ears before she wanders off to go sniff something else, patrolling around them.]

I'm dying back home. Not even conscious anymore. So this is a whole hell of a lot better - but I still wouldn't call it good.

[His head shoots up at that last part,

You're a tool. Nothing more. Some day you'll understand that. Some day they'll all understand that. Know. Your. Place. Deputy Pratt.

His eyes narrow, suddenly suspicious.]

Who's tool?

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