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[circumspector]

[ Angel's feature's flicker onto the screen, black-eyed, black hair, those strange blue markings that adorn her body down her left side and right horn, that telltale hint of fur that appears across her shoulders, her neck, collar-like. Decidedly, completely, not human. ]

Hi. There has never been an easy way to have this conversation so I am just going to jump into it. I'm a monster. [ Her long ears flick, pricking to sound, her chin resting in the palm of her hand. Her thick, black claws that come to flat ends tap against her cheek. ] It's a long, long story. But the sum of it is pretty straight forward, there was a God. She took people like this place takes people, she turned us into things. I became this. I wasn't always this, nor was I chosen for any grand reason. But now I am capable of smashing through concrete with one kick, I can lift ten or twelves my own weight, and I weight a lot, despite my size.

But that and the horns isn't why I call myself a monster. I'm a monster because I crave human flesh. I can and have eaten living people. I didn't get a choice about it. I can sate it when things are good. Raw meat of animals will do the trick. But, if I put it off any meat at all long enough, the hunger becomes ravenous, and I get taken over by this... this rage and hunger. I might - care for you, want happy things for you. But when I am like that? I'm not your friend. I'm not human. I'm not... not me. I can manage it, but this place just wiped my memories for a few days, so I can't make that assurance it will never happen.

So this is my permission. The day that happens, and you can't trap me or stop me, you can put a bullet in my head. I won't cling selfishly to a life where I am hurting someone to fuel myself. I'll only regret it when I come out of it. If it's me or someone else, I'll always pick for someone else to live over me hurting someone just because I am like... this.

[ She clears her throat, because what else is there to really say? So just... ]

... Do you think Tequila is bad for the Reindire? I keep feeding them mine.

[ #nailedit ]

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[circumspector]

Well, there is the planet I come from, Pandora. It's a planet largely known for its population of cannibals and convicts and almost entirely predator animals. Then there was Ryslig. It had the Fog God, she is the one that turned me into this.

Then there was the City of Sin, it was a... the same but different. The technology was better, but... it had demons, other planets we could visit, an Emperor who controlled it, we fell under strange moods and strange influences...

And now I am here, I suppose. What about you?

[itsnotaonesie]

...Okay. is it bad that your home world sounds just as bad, if not worse than the other ones?

[Just DAMN girl. DAMN.]

Uh, well, I'm from Earth. Probably not many cannibals, definitely a few convicts, much wider array of animals. We've had an alien invasion or two. Then I was in Hadriel, which was this city ruled by these Gods that manipulated and fed off our emotions and we had to fight an entire race of killer robots, and now I'm here where I spend most of my time trying to make sure we don't all die.

[circumspector]

You're... not wrong. [ She can't help but laugh, nodding in utter agreement. ] Just about every place is better than Pandora. We call it the second worst planet in the galaxy. I have a count down in how long before people just stop asking about where I come from. I usually get as far as "skin pizza party" before they beg me to stop. Because no matter how bad you think it is from me saying that, it's way, way worse.

[ And you are cute Peter, she doesn't want to tell you those horrible details. ]

Not dying definitely sounds like a good goal. I am happy to help when and where I can depending in how much you trust me. Even if I'm just assisting with the heavy lifting.

[itsnotaonesie]

That is terrifying and fascinating and I <>i>have to know which planet is the actual worst one in your galaxy now.

[He is adorable but at this point he is just so used to weird fuckness that it takes a lot to phase him.]

Not gonna lie, having someone else around who can help with the real heavy lifting will be so amazing. Like before you came along, I was literally the strongest person here, at least I'm pretty sure.

[circumspector]

Promethea. It wasn't always a good place, but after the corporate wars? It became a desolate misery of corporations destroying everything.

[ The ultimate misery is always what people do to each other. ]

You got it. I move at super speed, too. Call me whenever you need me.

[itsnotaonesie]

I'm not entirely sure what a corporate war is, but now I'm just picturing Amazon, Google and Disney goin' at each other.

[It's probably gonna happen, let's be honest.]

Super speed, too? That is awesome, I have got to see this some time.

[circumspector]

Sure, I think I've heard of those companies from other people from Earth. I mean, Atlas started out as a mining company, and it kind of went from there? We don't have governments or anything like that, just captalistic companies that control intergalactic trade.

[ She giggles. It's nice to be... appreciated. A new sensation, true enough, but one she still feels all the way down to her hooves. ] Be careful what you wish for. You keep that up I won't go easy on you.

[itsnotaonesie]

Wow. I never thought I'd hear of anything that sounds worse than the government, but here we are.

[man Peter just gets so excited seeing what other people can do, he lives for this shit.] Also definitely don't hold back on me, I wanna see what all you can do.

[circumspector]

Honestly. We read about democracy sometimes I guess, seems like a utopia from when the human race only covered on planet.

[ She will, to some degree hold back. Because she can't let that part out. She just can't. It won't be safe for anyone when her blood gets up and that hunger comes out in full force.

But just getting to play? Well. That won't be too bad. ] You got it. We'll see what you're made of then.

[itsnotaonesie]

Sounds way better than whatever you got goin' on, that's for sure.

[As excited as he is, yeah, he really doesn't want to get eaten by some kinda monster no matter how nice she usually is.]

Sounds great! I mean, I'm gonna stop bugging you and let you get settled in first.

[circumspector]

Cool, I'll see you tomorrow.

[itsnotaonesie]

Sure thing, bye!