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[redwinekindofgirl]

So... few of us here have come from other places, right?

[She tucks her hair behind her ear and a few of the shorter strands fall forwards again. Annoyed, she puffs them out of her face with a quick exhale.]

I guess that doesn't matter, really-- Would you want to forget it all?

[Julie pauses, then adds some clarification.]

Where I've been, people didn't remember stuff after they left. Sometimes they'd come back and not remember they'd been there. Would you want that, or... would you want to remember?

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[tsuyoi_ame]

This is my first time in a different world but I think, even if I ever end up somewhere else, I'd want to remember. I wouldn't want to forget you or any of the friends I've made here, even if I go home.

[redwinekindofgirl]

Yeah, remembering the good parts is easy.

[She pushes her hair back, frowning.]

But there's a lot of shit I could do without.

[tsuyoi_ame]

But even the bad parts, they make us who we become, right?

[Sure, the last month was probably the hardest of his young life. But, he grew from it, so that was a good thing, right?]

[redwinekindofgirl]

Pft. Doesn't mean it's a good thing.

[There's a good deal of Julie's life that she doesn't like. Parts of herself - the hard, jagged-edged parts - that she doesn't want. But she is who she is.]

Sometimes life is just shit.

[tsuyoi_ame]

But if we can find the good in it, that's what my dad always taught me.

[Surprisingly, Yamamoto too, it's why his dad had to teach him such a lesson, show his son and try to help him accept the parts of him he did not like. He does okay or at least he pretends pretty well and always encourages his friends.]

Yeah, but it makes you appreciate the good more.

[redwinekindofgirl]

My dad taught me how to kill people.

[It comes out harsher than she means it, though the barb isn't directed at Yamamoto. Julie can still remember how her father was before, when he would play guitar while her mother sang, but she can't even be sure if those memories are real and not just tainted with the rosy lenses of childhood.

Everything from her tweens onwards is bitter-tasting and sharp. Innocence lost.]

But I guess... the good is pretty good when there's not a whole lot of it.

[tsuyoi_ame]

That's a hard lesson.

[His dad taught him to fight but he knows he is lucky in that his dad also taught him how to care and was always loving and supportive. For most of his life, he just thought that's how it was, but he has learned since, that not everyone has that.

Most of his friends do not have that and he wishes he could show them even a little of what it was like, because being lucky he wants to share that luck with those he cares about.]

Yeah, we can pick what we hold onto, me I'll pick the good, like ice cream in the summer, or fireworks with my friends, first kisses, those are really nice, wouldn't want to forget those.

[redwinekindofgirl]

Yeah... Yeah, I guess.

[A lot of what Julie wouldn't want to lose is back in her childhood, but there have been more recent things, too. It's just hard to see it all, sometimes, when it's wrapped up inside so much hurt.

Maybe it was a stupid question for her to ask, really. Not everyone has been through the kind of shit that she has.]

I could go for some ice cream right now.

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Yamamoto will take his good and his bad. He has always been the one out of his friend group to focus on the good more than the bad. T

To him, the bad are just blips on the way to the good, move the obstacle, and keep on going; it's one foot in front of the other kind of thing.]

I wonder if the Daisy Darling would come back, we could make mochi ice cream; it's good.

[redwinekindofgirl]

[From the conversations Julie has been having, he isn't the only one to think like that.]

Bet there's some in storage in this place somewhere. Even people in space gotta want ice cream.

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Oh that perks him up.]

We should go see if we can't find some.

[redwinekindofgirl]

Really?

[She doesn't need to think about it for very long.]

Yeah, sure, why not. It's been ages.

[tsuyoi_ame]

Sure, I bet we aren't the only ones who miss ice cream.

[It would be a nice surprise for them and their friends here in the dome, everyone could use a pick me up.]

I can go whenever you want.

[Not like there is a schedule to keep.]

[redwinekindofgirl]

I bet.

[Given her reaction to the cake, he can probably get the idea that Julie has missed out on a hell of a lot in her life.]

There's some restaurants up near where the shops are, yeah? Maybe the freezers kept running.

[tsuyoi_ame]

Meet you there in twenty?

[True and Yamamoto is all about helping his friends, even if it's just as something as simple as ice cream or cake, he wants to see them all happy.]

[redwinekindofgirl]

Ten. I'll race you.

[Look, she knows he's damn fast, and maybe she's feeling like a bit of a challenge today.]

[tsuyoi_ame]

You're on!

[And he is up and on his way out the door already!]

[redwinekindofgirl]

[So Julie might have cheated a little, because she knows she's got no chance against Yamamoto. But even with a head start, she isn't going to beat him up there without giving herself an asthma attack.

Still, she's going to try.]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[That's okay, considering that Yamamoto can almost inhumanly run for long distances without so much as getting winded makes this sort of competition stacked unfairly, to begin with, and thus a little cheating should be allowed by the other party.

It helps that Hayato caught him as he dashed out the door so he stopped a few moments to tell his boyfriend where he was going before taking off again. He is only a few seconds behind her most likely but Julie does win this race.

He jogs up chuckling with that wide smile for her.]

No way, you beat me! Nice!

[redwinekindofgirl]

[She doesn't win easily, even through a little cheating and a delay on his side. When he greets her she waves her hand at him and wheezes in a few breaths, bracing her hands against her knees. The inhaler that Ben had found for her early in their stay here had long since been used up, and she hadn't looked too hard for another one.

Easy enough to find, after all. Most of the time she wouldn't need to dodge zombies to get anything.]

Yeah-- yeah... just gimme a minute. Fucking Christ.

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Yamamoto has never known anyone with asthma before, though when she continues to struggle a bit his brows narrow in concern. Looks like he's got a new item to add to his list of things to keep an eye out for.]

Are you okay?

[Maybe he can help?]

[redwinekindofgirl]

Yeah-- Yeah.

[She waves her hand at him again, shaking her head while each breath struggles into her lungs on a wheeze.]

Stupid asthma.

[tsuyoi_ame]

I didn't know you had asthma.

[His brow stays creased worriedly, though he does stand there waiting for her to catch her breath.]

Can I do anything?

[redwinekindofgirl]

Nah, nah, just... just give me a minute.

[It's been a while now since she had an asthma attack bad enough to send her to her knees.... and really, it's never been a luxury she's been able to afford. She stays standing, hands braced against her legs, and takes enough deep breaths that she's able to straighten herself up.]

See? [She's still wheezing slightly, but not getting worse.] All good.

[tsuyoi_ame]

Got it!

[Maybe he should carry some brown paper bags too, do those help? He is not a hundred percent sure but he'd try what he can think of if it's needed.]

That's kind of scary, I've never known anyone who that happens to. [He smiles.] But I'm really glad you're okay!