Video @Smoking.Bomb

[bakudan_bambino]

[The video opens up to a young man with silver hair, a bored expression on his face, and a kitten on his shoulder.]

Is there anyone around here that's good with robotics and/or programming?

[The boy points to a leather half choke collar around his neck. The kitten on his shoulder yawns, tucks its face against the collar, and one of its legs hang off, the flames gushing out of its ears doing absolutely nothing to Gokudera's neck.]

This keeps shocking me, and it can't be removed. It only started when I arrived on Anchor, so I think the travel here is causing it to ma- [He winces gently, and the kitten gets up and then hops off and out of the camera's view.] malfunction.

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[video]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Truthfully, Gokudera looks comfortable where he is. The library suits him apparently. He grins at the other through the video, still trotting along to his destination.]



Think I should test it on a small area first? [He knew Gokudera would have the answer, he tilts his head in a sideways motion toward the camera, showing that despite him not sitting still he is listening intently.]

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[bakudan_bambino]

Yeah, it's always better to run a test. Just make sure your sample area isn't too big, and it's similar enough to what you plan to work with when you farm. Also, check for pests or any other outside influences.

[He's watching, wondering if he could help, but too curious and comfortable where he is currently to offer.]

[video]

[tsuyoi_ame]

Got it! Thanks [Besides if he forgets any of that he can always bug Gokudera again.

But he does not disconnect, instead, he is leaning on one of the better-fixed areas of the fence around the field, panning his communicator around so Gokudera can see the cattle. And their huge protector there in the middle of the field.]

Have you ever seen a cattle look like that?

[Are his eyes playing tricks on him here Gokudera or do the cattle get protected by the undead cattle monster from hell. Nearly ten feet tall, blue light coming from him with a mismatch of parts human and animal, Yamamoto is pretty sure this is not right, almost guaranteed but it is not attacking. He just wanted to see what Gokudera thought.]

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[bakudan_bambino]

Yeah, sure.

[Gokudera is amused by the other showing him around, but he gawks at that strange thing in the field.]

A cattle?! It looks like a nightmare! Is it even real?

[video]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Well, if Gokudera is holing up in the library that is what Yamamoto is for, to explore around when they aren't out doing so together. He laughs but even the carefree swordsman is not getting close.]

I mean, I think it's supposed to be but [He moves a few inches to the left.] Does that look like it's from a human? It's definitely real, I won't let Kojiro or Jiro out just in case.

[video]

[bakudan_bambino]

[It's not bad. Gokudera is able to sort of keep an eye on him this way, and while he can't keep up with his reading while the other boy talks, it's not unpleasant. Doesn't feel as invasive as having him close by.]

They look like experiments, or like... someone just mixed a bunch of different things together and that was the closest to a cow they could come up with.

[Gokudera pushes his glasses up his nose and squints at the screen.]

Is anyone responsible for them?

[video]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[He can take clues on occasion and give some space, he'll invade it soon enough, he can't help himself.]

Think the glow is from the experiment? It's kind of creepy. [Yamamoto nods, he assumes it's Carlisle since the other lives out here and was planting a garden when he met him.]

Yeah, some guy out here, he was planting in his garden earlier, I stopped and talked to him. Nice guy. Think he made it?

[video]

[bakudan_bambino]

[Libraries are great for times when he needs space. They bore most other people.

And Gokudera causes himself more than enough trouble when Yamamoto is around. Having the baseball idiot occupy his space as well as his thoughts can get... overwhelming.]

Yeah I think the whole thing, glowing bits and all are. Maybe that's like its.. power supply? Eh, yeah a little... but it seems calm. [Would he go closer if he were in Yamamoto's shoes? Probably.]

Maybe it was brought in from outside of the colony,

[video]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[They definitely bore Yamamoto. If he was there, his thoughts would end up spilling over while he still sorts them or he'd stare or in some way annoy the bomber for sure.]

Wait, it's like the... [He leans in, not going over the fence yet as he tries to show Gokudera better. It looks as if the limbs on the creature are rearranging themselves, the bones can be heard as they click, clack, and move around this way. WHAT THE...

Okay.]

Think so? I'm going closer.

[He isn't technically alone, he called Gokudera first and Yamamoto hops the fence in one smooth motion. The moment his feet touch the ground there is an unearthly howl that could raise the dead, the hair stands up on his arms, a trickle of fear actually goes down his spine, bones rattle and his camera pans as the monstrosity rises up, steam seeming to come from where it's nose should be it's got the Rain Guardian in its sights for sure.]

...Shit.....

[video]

[bakudan_bambino]

[There is undoubtedly something hanging between them that Gokudera is just going to do his best to avoid.]

Sounds rickety? [It's hard to make out. Good thing Yamamoto is moving closer.

Or not.]

Jump back over, idiot! [Gokudera's slamming whatever book he was reading shut and gets up] Uri! [God dammit where did that stupid cat go?! He's going to have to go help! Probably not, but that's his first instinct and he'll be damned if the baseball idiot gets mauled by some golem-alien-bull-monster. Gokudera's punching boxes and gasps.]

Hop out and get some rain flames out. Slow it down! [Cause if not... that fence doesn't look really strong.]

[video]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Yamamoto will not approach it without having himself in order, unless Gokudera does so the bomber and his avoidance should be safe, for now. And, Yamamoto is clearly being his usual self through it all.]


It is...[He is in motion after the initial shock, he could use his box weapon here, he drops the communicator long enough to flare his ring to life.] On it..

[As Gokudera can clearly see from the way the video looks up at his face, those eyes have went from wide to hard, determined as he feeds flames into the box, the dog and sparrow appearing with the rush of wind and flames that is his resolve. The sparrow is like a shot, in the air it dances around the advancing beast, rain flames dancing from it as Yamamoto leaves Shigure Kintoki on his shoulder, not looking to fight more slow this thing down and get out of here he drops into a roll as it charges at him, grabbing his device as he yells for Jiro to move, the pup fast as lighting as he follows his boy under the beast, he grimaces, one bone detaching itself as it grabs his side and drags. Flames burst from the three short swords and he is under and up, not showing signs as heat burns in his side. The flames blast him back, he does not go into the air but instead races to the fence with Jiro at his heels. Looking over his shoulder as blue flames cover the monster and Kojiro races toward him. They can do this, it seems to be slowing except, crap it moves it's bones again, shifting ones not covered in flames to the ground to continue its rush.]

RUN! [he yells at the box weapons, grabbing Jiro in the hand with his communicator he shoots them up into the air over the fence, a broken piece catching, breaking off it flys back and hits the beast. Causing it to roar, rearing up as it reaches towards its prey. He drops the dog on top of his head, Jiro darting around as he hovers, flashing Gokudera a smile, ignoring the blood on his side]

I don't think it's friendly.

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[bakudan_bambino]

[It's not that Yamamoto isn't moving fast enough. Really, his reaction time is freakishly fast. Gokudera's a bit baffle and startled that Yamamoto brought out both his box weapons.]

Idiot! Get Jirou out of there! What the f-

[And there's blood and flames, and Gokudera's not even sure how he's moving as fast as he is. Honestly, it all just feels like reflex to punch out his lightning-disc from his Sistema CAI and hey, Uri's back on his shoulder. The cat must have figured out that there was something more exciting than rubble. Gokudera's gliding towards the upper levels of Anchor and realizes he has to find Yamamoto. Good thing he's still got him on video.

There's panic flooding through him, but Gokudera's usually able to be very practical when shit hits the fan. Usually it's his fault when everything goes to hell anyways and SHIT this creature looks more terrifying in the... flesh? Gokudera's summoning more bone loops, pushing the bull back, blocking where it might try to jump. He's gliding over to Yamamoto and his dog.] Put Jirou away!

[Uri meows and leads by example, turning to flames and retreating to the safety of the ring on Gokudera's finger. For his past, the bomber is having a hard time balancing his focus on Yamamoto and worrying over his wound, and wondering if he can knock out the bull, or at least block it until it gives up.]

[action]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[He shoves his communicator away, nodding at Gokudera, it does not surprise him that his friend showed up. Even if he had not gotten injured, there is not a Guardian among them who would leave another to face something like this alone if it can be avoided.]

I needed the swords, I thought I'd have enough time to get him back in. [He is quick to put the pup away and deploy the sparrow back toward the beast. With his hand free now he drops Shigure Kintoki to his free hand, flames lighting along the blade as it's wrapping flutters to the ground near the beast who drops low and begins pawing the ground as if to charge.]

If you can distract him long enough I think Kojiro and I can get close to douse him and slow him enough for us to get out of here. [Thankfully it seems content to stay within the confines of the fence. He is paying no mind to his side, that will have to wait till later and his entire demeanor. From the way he holds his body there to the look in his eyes says as much. This first, he is not dying so he is not stopping.]

[action]

[bakudan_bambino]

[You mess with one mafia super-powered teenager, you have to mess with the rest of them! It's just a bull.

Gokudera is sliding closer to Yamamoto on his disc, watching as the dog is put away. He breathes a sigh of relief and watches as the bird gets back to work on spreading those flames.]

Don't get closer. Look... it views us as the threat to the herd, right? [Gokudera looks over at the cattle grazing and seeming completely ignorant to what is going on with the boys and the strange bull.]

So just let Kojiro do what he does best, and we'll both stay out of the way. The bird's too small to be a threat. [Sure, Yamamoto may not be dying, but Gokudera's not going to let him expend the energy necessary for his weapons and well-being. He'll just keep the bone loops out to act as an extension of the fence.] Those flames might take a while with the uh... bull not being completely alive? Organic...? So those can soak in and we can back off to make ourselves seem like less of a threat.

[action]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Exactly, Vongola fight as a family. Also, just a mutant raging, the mass of writing bones, flesh, and glowing excrement kind of bull but still a bull adjacent? With his boy and his other partner safe, Kojiro is swift at his work, darting this way and that as flames layer themselves over the beast.

Bit by bit it seems to be working, fewer pieces can turn than before. This is why they work, where Yamamoto is action, Gokudera can see the need to stay still. He himself has no concern for his side, he just wants to be sure the bull does not leave the pen.

But Gokudera has a point, even now as long as they stay back it seems to be calming down. Well, there he went again, carefree and causing problems.]

Okay. [It does not occur to him that it is a concern for him that has Gokudera telling him to stay back, it just sounds like the best plan and of course Gokudera would think of it. He hovers, there, flames pulsing from those three short blades as Shigure Kintoki returns to bamboo. He flinches any time the beast moves a part near the sparrow, he does not want anything to happen.]

That thing belongs in some kind of freak show but it looks like they are getting through... [Seriously, who leaves a beast like that in a rickety fenced in area?] That fence needs to be fixed, the next guy might not be so lucky.

[Or you know, super-powered by dying will flame and speed like these guys here. Kojiro slows, going further in the air the sparrow hovers as the beast lumbers, painstakingly slow now, it is not done, it still snorts and does not seem too happy that Yamamoto exists at all but in general, it is not going go gore him to death so plus! He can feel blood trickling down his side, he shifts trying to be subtle because he is so good at that in order to loosen his outer shirt from his tee so it doesn't seep through both layers.]

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[bakudan_bambino]

[Gokudera is still just watching, caging and almost pushing the bull back with his bone loops. If the creature backs up, the shield takes up space. There is no more active pushing or blocking so much as an invasion of space to limit wherever this thing thinks it's going.

He's not focused on how they're operating together, so much as getting this done as easily and as quickly as possible. Gokudera is not patient, but he understands the stress of using weapons, of being in battle has on the body. Yamamoto may be fine, might have had this under control. That's not going to keep Gokudera from trying to make this easier. Work smarter, not harder, baseball idiot.

Gokudera glances back, eyes shifting to the other boy's side before he's looking at the fence.]

Alright. We'll just have to make sure they want to stay in their pen...

[He can't quickly construct anything. Gokudera could probably break the fence by leaning on it a certain way. So, he's looking around for the kind of plants that might get gnarly and block any advancements of the herd. Gokudera's pulling out a canister and calling out his flame arrow. The cannon sits strapped to his arm, skull mouths open while he lights up his sun flame and starts to pack the ammunition. Without storm flames, it should be fine... maybe like an instant fertilizer? It's just... really exhausting to concentrate on a non-dominant flame.] Keep Kojiro back. [Gokudera's voice is a bit soft, and he aims at the spot where the fence is broken. After loading the canister into the skull closest to his elbow, he fires off the concentration of sun flames.

Upon impact, there's nothing, but then suddenly the grass is growing tall, and along with it, the shrubs are too. They look lush and full, and are not as tall as the herd's protector, but large enough to keep those cattle back. Gokudera sits on the disc and tucks his flame arrow away, his left hand wiping at his brow.]

Fuck that thing.

[action]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[He is better at that mantra in actual battle. It is impressive, those shields, Yamamoto has his own set of skills but it does not mean he can't appreciate what each of his friends is capable of.

It's not unheard of him for him to stand back and someone else takes care of the problem. He can't help however feeling a little sheepish as things wind down and the hulking mass of bones, sinew, flesh, and otherworldly atrocities it seems lumbers back to its spot, no longer able to distort itself and attack, for the time being. It's going to be stuck in place and Yamamoto let's out a breath. Kojiro coming to rest on his shoulder.]

Okay [The sparrow is content to sit where it is, Yamamoto has a nice enough head he supposes. Makes a decent perch up here in the air. He knows Gokudera has multiple flames, whereas he has rain but it is still impressive to see. He gives a cheer as the grass shoots up.] Amazing!

[His hovering is a little lazy now, threat neutralize as it is, he thinks maybe he should gather some materials and come back tomorrow to work on securing that fence better. He hasn't really ever done something like that but he won't know till he tries.

At the fuck that thing he laughs then gives a firm nod.]

Right! I think I'll help that guy fix the fence, keep them from getting out but let's get out of here for today.

[Even he has his limits and well, he'll leave any more exploring till tomorrow or at least a few hours from now. He lowers himself to the ground, looking up to his friend he rubs the side of his head with a sheepish smile.]

Sorry for interrupting your studying. [He is going to keep hushed about his side, he has some bandages left at the Quad and he does not want to worry Gokudera. He never considers the other watched the whole thing. It burns more than stings but it's not so much that he can't stand it and from the feel, the blood is slowing even now, looks like he may have gotten luckier than he thought.]

[action]

[bakudan_bambino]

[Gokudera has been using his bone loops and his flames outside of battle for a while. There are a lot of practical applications the flames have, and he just has to keep testing out what they can do on their own. Without any rush of training before a big battle, he's even learned how to sort of clone things with his cloud flames. He's not great at it... and is better with his rain and sun flames, but practice makes perfect.

He watches as Yamamoto lowers to be on the ground and follows him until his disc vanishes back into his box and the bone loops in the pen shrink and glide to make their return.]

If you were going to do it today, I think I'd have to hit you. We should do something about that [And he points to Yamamoto's side. Sure, he can't see any blood, but he saw the look on the other boy's face through the video. Even if the damage is small and nothing to actually be worried about, Gokudera will not take it lightly. He's had way too many types of injuries to just let something like this go.]

C'mon we're going to the med bay. The books will be there whenever I get back to them. [It's not a huge loss. Yamamoto should not apologize, and Gokudera's expression is very serious.] I shouldn't have encouraged you. [Damn his curiosity about that bull-monster thing! Gokudera wanted to see, not put Yamamoto in danger over it.]

[action]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[Yamamoto is working on that, now that he is in Anchor and can find other uses for them because there isn't another battle to prepare for. Yamamoto would like to see him use his cloud flames too, it would be neat to find out he had other flames. Then again, with his personality, he has just what he needs and is more than content with it. His flames work best with his weapon, like a bat and a ball. Practice definitely makes perfect. He may seem to be carefree but he is a hard worker too, training till he drops most of the time. Then getting up and doing it again.

His eyebrows shoot up, damn.]

I was hoping you missed that... [Well, if he is caught he may as well save his outer shirt the bloodstain and he begins peeling it off. Holding it up to see the hole in it, well that sucks but it's fixable, he drops the shirt over his shoulder. He nods when Gokudera mentions the med bay because now that he sees his undershirt he realizes this might take more than bandages but not as many stitches as it could have been. He raises his shirt to get a look at the gash, it's deepish but not as bad as some he has had. He was wrong on the blood though, that definitely reached the top of his pants and the edges are gnarly, ragged from the way the bone ripped them.

Damn it, damn it, damn it. He has been trying his hardest not to make mistakes like this, every day he does his best to think and not just react every time. Using his battle senses and brain in his day to day life so he doesn't cause the other to worry. It's their first chance to relax a little and he wanted Gokudera to find a way to take advantage of that.

He had been checking himself as they talked, heading to the Med Bay with Gokudera without argument, so he missed the expression but he hears the tone and the words. His head snaps up, looking at Gokudera. He stops in his tracks.] It's not like you made me, I should have gone in prepared. I know better than to be that stupid.

[He does, he really does, for all his outward derpiness and how oblivious he can be. He is not a complete idiot. There is no way this is Gokudera's fault, it's his and he got off lucky that it's going to leave him with nothing more than what will be an interesting scar.]

[action]

[bakudan_bambino]

[It helps to test their abilities when they have the time and none of that intense pressure to do so. There's no enemy looming ahead that's threatening the family's well-being. Gokudera's flames work best with his weapons as well, but in their rawest form, it takes a lot of them to get anything done. Storm flames out of his flame arrow feel natural and with his will, are almost a reflex to push out. Anything else requires a different mindset, and a lot of his energy.]

Why?

[Why would Yamamoto hope he missed that his friend was hurt?

The med bay may not be as high tech as the clinic Gokudera used to work at, but it's clean. He's not going to suggest that the other get into one of the healing tubes, because he's not sure what kind of injury and how serious it is.]

Take your shirt off. [He washes his hands and starts to search for bandages. After a minute he remembers that oh yeah... sun flames! Gokudera turns back to him with clean hands, some gauze, sterile solution and a softly imploring expression on his face.]

[action]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[One can imagine, easy to draw on the flame that matches one the best versus drawing out others. Even Tsuna struggles with his own flames some times. It has been interesting for Yamamoto to attempt to try them out and see what good his flames can do outside of battle. Of course, that is far from his mind as he is busy mentally kicking himself.]

Oh, I said that out loud....[He was not aware he did that till Gokudera calls him on it, he takes a breath. Using the need to take off his shirt to give himself a moment before answering. It may seem stupid to Gokudera and Yamamoto wants to make sure he understands. So instead he occupies himself by popping his elbows into the front hem of his shirt, using his shoulder muscles he rolls the shirt up and over his head, holding it in his left hand loosely as it hangs by the opposite side of that wound.


The problem is it's simple, maybe too simple of answer that he can give because it does not explain why as a whole, just answers the immediate.] I didn't want you to worry.

[He planned to take care of the wound, without healing tubes he is not entirely sure on those yet and until it is something he can't endure he'll keep going like this. Bandages are nothing new to him after all, he usually ends up with some after every battle, being a swordsman makes it par for the course. Not to mention the beating an athlete can take in any given game. He is certainly used to being wound in one way or another, even with his skills.

He may not trust the tubes but he trusts Gokudera, rather he uses needle and thread or sun flames. Yamamoto knows he'll do his best.]

[action]

[bakudan_bambino]

[Gokudera is more prone to lingering on his missteps. In this case, watching as Yamamoto is reflecting so much and the apology makes the bomber think his friend is spending too much time on this. It's not that bad, not something he should be kicking himself over.

But hearing that he'd not wanted Gokudera to hear that, that he'd hoped Gokudera had not noticed something like an injury when he is the only family that the bomber has... it's infuriating. Gokudera takes a steadying breath and approaches. He looks Yamamoto over and glares while soaking the gauze.]

Oh yeah? Well, I'd worry regardless.

[Gokudera's nice and close, lifts Yamamoto's arm out of the way and places the gauze to clean the wound, gently dabbing at it despite the way his anger makes him want to press hard and punish.]

Fucking idiot... You know I want to help, and you know that I care... so if it could get worse or anything, don't you think I'd want to know? [Gokudera looks up, going to make eye contact, but his gaze pauses on the other boy's chest. He doesn't have the same scar... of course he wouldn't. This is a younger Yamamoto. He reaches and brushes a hand up where he'd known that scar had been. Memory serves it had been from a fatal wound, and he seems a bit lost in thought as his hand keeps gently pressing the wet gauze.]

If the same thing happened to me, wouldn't you want me to tell you?

[And he looks up finally, blinking his focus back and dropping his hand. Gokudera sighs and looks at the wound, pulls the gauze back and puts his right hand over it while activating his sun flames. Those seem to be the flames of the day... ugh, how exhausting.]

[action]

[tsuyoi_ame]

[He is spending too much time on it, he's been doing that a lot in his thoughts lately. It is not a bad thing, it is just marking growth in the hitman from the way things have changed in his life since arriving on Anchor. His thoughts haven't been negative, but then he has kept the more reflective moments like this to himself as he ran or found a spot to work in Anchor.

He can see it in Gokudera's gaze, in his body language, he knows he messed up. He was being stupid and it is not something he is used to being so aware of.]

I know, it's just for once, things were good, you could hide in the library all day and read if you wanted. There are no bad guys looking to hurt us, it's nice and I wanted you to enjoy it.

[He hangs his head, not a common position for Yamamoto, he can feel Gokudera there. He knew he would have to be close to clean the wound so it does not surprise him. What does is how gentle the gauze is, he knows he pissed him off, he deserves him to be angry with him. And all he can is say the words, why does he have to use so many words. Because what he feels is not something he himself has learned how to show exactly yet or express right in words he thinks but he tries. He always tries harder but right now, he is trying his hardest.]

You're right, I'm sorry for being stupid. [What he does not expect is Gokudera's hand on his chest or the reflective look in his eyes as touches Yamaomto's bare skin, even a brush is more than anyone else has ever done in his life, to most a small thing it's a first for the baseball player. It's warm, not just where Gokudera touches but blossoming outward from it to the rest of his body. He is certain Gokudera can hear how hard his heart thumps as it echoes in his own ears. Still staring at the place where fingers were a moment ago, not even noticing the burning that comes from his side as gauze cleans the wound.

Then he his head snaps up, as if out of a trance and he stares at Gokudera.]

Of course, I couldn't stand it if something happened to you. [Well..words, he had them didn't he. And out of his mouth, they go without him thinking, it's as raw and honest as one can be since he did not think, he just spoke his mind immediately. Then concern draws his brow, Gokudera is looking tired, those flames he is trying his best to ignore as he does not want to grimace must be hard on him. He can feel his skin pull, it should be enough. Slowly he raises his fingers covering Gokudera's sun flames with his own hand, a soft trickle of rain flames lighting along with his own without his notice. They aren't going to do much in the grand scheme as rain flames aren't designed for healing perse but it's the resolve to not see his friend overexert himself and his ring responds to his feelings.]

It's okay, don't overdo it. [It's strange, he can feel so off-kilter, so down but the moment he even thinks Gokudera could need him, it gives him a determination. Even if this would all be uncalled for had he been smarter.]

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[bakudan_bambino]

[Gokudera isn't angry at Yamamoto for getting hurt, or even for beating himself up about it. It's more aggravation over the other trying to lie through omission. For trying to hide from him when they should be working together. This is something Yamamoto has established and is a bit hypocritical for him to be trying to tough it out on his own.

Ultimately, the baseball idiot was just trying to be considerate of his feelings, and he understands that. But it would be so much worse for Gokudera to not know there was something he could do to help the Rain Guardian while he went about with an injury and dealing with it on his own.]

I'm not mad at you for it happening [Yamamoto did his best in the situation. Gokudera isn't mad that he got hurt. Shit happens.] And I wasn't hiding in the library. You should be able to enjoy not having to fight, too, you know. This as big a change for me as it is for you. So... we've got to work together here, right?

[Gokudera hums at the apology.] The Tenth would be upset if anything happened to you.

[If Gokudera notices how Yamamoto reacts at how he's touched, he doesn't address it. The bomber instead just looks up at him, something imploring in his gaze. Be careful. Talk to me. Stay... and then his eyes move down and stop right on the idiot's lips as he speaks without thinking.] Then let me help. [He wants to do so much more.]

[The sun flames and rain flames would not work together well, but Yamamoto's not pushing out his will in an overpowering manner. It gets Gokudera's attention and he chews the inside of his lip, frowning softly at that hand on his own.]

Don't you want me to?[Oh he can be manipulative, even if he is tired.] This is fine... I'm used to this. [With his lightning disc and his sun flames, Gokudera was practically a Midas ambulance on Amoi. The blast earlier to detain the cattle had been more draining, and this... feels like something he truly wants to do... needs to do to feel needed.]

I'm almost done.

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[tsuyoi_ame]

[Gokudera is right and as he speaks Yamamoto knows what his real mistake was, he will not make it again. He may be oblivious, some times even do really stupid things. But, he is smart enough to learn from this. He would never want to make it worse for Gokudera.

Sure, he's met people here but Gokudera is all he really has. He can trust people but not the way he can Gokudera, such as sitting shirtless while he tends his wounds. There is no one else Yamamoto would show that small vulnerability to. Let alone the much larger vulnerability that is all too clear in how he's handled this. ] I feel kind of lost without it.

[He thought he lost baseball, he gave up, Tsuna saved him, gave him a purpose and one thing he has yet to admit out loud since getting here. Part of his manic, get involved in everything is that without that purpose, it's dark some times and he doesn't like that part of himself. When he has a purpose he can lose that part, it goes away and for the most part he keeps it at bay even now. Just every once in a while, when he slows down it feels like his hand is reaching for something but it keeps coming up empty. He does not know how to put it in words.

He does smile softly at the mention of Tsuna. Because he also knows, it's Gokudera's way of saying he would be upset if something happened to Yamamoto as well. He has more than the purpose Tsuna gave him, he just has to remember, he does not have to fulfill that purpose alone.] Okay...[How could or why would he refuse, he knows, despite his show of bravery, he needs Gokudera, probably more than the bomber will realize.

It's not fair, really Gokudera has to worry his lip that way, it's starting to feel like kryptonite to Yamamoto every time he does that. He thinks about it but doesn't mean to act on it when he reaches up, fingers curling under Gokudera's chin he gently touches the worried lip with the pad of his thumb. Please his eyes say, what his mouth takes a moment to get to, he meant to sit here, keep his hands to himself rather than risk Gokudera feeling uncomfortable and moving away. Instead, here he is thumb touching his lips, fingers on his chin and hands touching. Except, Gokudera's eyes said stay, he's trying to tell him he isn't going anywhere, he doesn't want to, no matter what. He found his way to tell him, he will talk, he will stay, he won't try to do things on his own again. ] Yes, please, just be careful.

[not of him but of yourself is what he is asking, of course, he knows Gokudera knows that. The flames die, he means to move both his hands, he really does but it's like he's frozen in place as his wound brings itself back to right thanks to Gokudera.]