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[redwinekindofgirl]

So... few of us here have come from other places, right?

[She tucks her hair behind her ear and a few of the shorter strands fall forwards again. Annoyed, she puffs them out of her face with a quick exhale.]

I guess that doesn't matter, really-- Would you want to forget it all?

[Julie pauses, then adds some clarification.]

Where I've been, people didn't remember stuff after they left. Sometimes they'd come back and not remember they'd been there. Would you want that, or... would you want to remember?

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[redwinekindofgirl]

So we're not actually disagreeing.

[Their version of 'normal' is fucked and not what real 'normal' should be. Julie's sick of always worrying if she's going to see the next day, and there have been more days in her life where she's thought she might die than ones where she hasn't.]

I prefer the 'hey maybe I won't die today' days.

[bakudan_bambino]

Right.

[It felt like more of a discussion than a disagreement. Comparisons do usually feel like that in these sort of circumstances, but there is no competition. Having to worry over death isn't fun, and that doesn't matter whatever world they come from.]

So far so good, then. You're not dead yet.

[redwinekindofgirl]

[She has to laugh at that, and it isn't a harsh laugh.]

Fuck, if you aren't right. [Isn't she alive? Not entirely whole, but she's alive.]

I don't go down easily.

[bakudan_bambino]

You should be proud of that. Not a lot of people get back up when they are knocked down. I think that's more important than if you do get knocked down or not.

[What an oddly comforting feeling. Gokudera is pretty happy with his life right now, especially what he's made of it on Anchor after Amoi. It feels like every step is a recovery.]

[redwinekindofgirl]

Yeah, well... I know what the alternative is, and back home there are worse things than death.

[That's not said to be dramatic, though it sure comes out that way and she notices it, scrunching her face up at her own words.]

I mean, zombies are a thing. [They don't really like being called that, and she doesn't like calling them that anymore, but it's easier than using her own words then needing to explain.]

[bakudan_bambino]

Zombies are a thing where you come from?

[Gokudera seems relatively amused with this topic.]

They're mostly used as a subject of scary stories where I'm from.

[redwinekindofgirl]

Yeah? Good for you.

[They used to be stories for her too.]

My boyfriend was killed by them, my dad, and my mom is--- Whatever. I wish they were just scary stories.

[bakudan_bambino]

I'm not going to say it can't happen, or anything. I am incredibly grateful that I've never lived through any type of zombie invasion...

[He can't imagine what she went through, but that it's something that he'd hate. Gokudera chews the inside of his lip.]

I'm sorry to hear that. At least you're in this world and there are no zombies. [yet.]