[Gokudera is right and as he speaks Yamamoto knows what his real mistake was, he will not make it again. He may be oblivious, some times even do really stupid things. But, he is smart enough to learn from this. He would never want to make it worse for Gokudera.
Sure, he's met people here but Gokudera is all he really has. He can trust people but not the way he can Gokudera, such as sitting shirtless while he tends his wounds. There is no one else Yamamoto would show that small vulnerability to. Let alone the much larger vulnerability that is all too clear in how he's handled this. ] I feel kind of lost without it.
[He thought he lost baseball, he gave up, Tsuna saved him, gave him a purpose and one thing he has yet to admit out loud since getting here. Part of his manic, get involved in everything is that without that purpose, it's dark some times and he doesn't like that part of himself. When he has a purpose he can lose that part, it goes away and for the most part he keeps it at bay even now. Just every once in a while, when he slows down it feels like his hand is reaching for something but it keeps coming up empty. He does not know how to put it in words.
He does smile softly at the mention of Tsuna. Because he also knows, it's Gokudera's way of saying he would be upset if something happened to Yamamoto as well. He has more than the purpose Tsuna gave him, he just has to remember, he does not have to fulfill that purpose alone.] Okay...[How could or why would he refuse, he knows, despite his show of bravery, he needs Gokudera, probably more than the bomber will realize.
It's not fair, really Gokudera has to worry his lip that way, it's starting to feel like kryptonite to Yamamoto every time he does that. He thinks about it but doesn't mean to act on it when he reaches up, fingers curling under Gokudera's chin he gently touches the worried lip with the pad of his thumb. Please his eyes say, what his mouth takes a moment to get to, he meant to sit here, keep his hands to himself rather than risk Gokudera feeling uncomfortable and moving away. Instead, here he is thumb touching his lips, fingers on his chin and hands touching. Except, Gokudera's eyes said stay, he's trying to tell him he isn't going anywhere, he doesn't want to, no matter what. He found his way to tell him, he will talk, he will stay, he won't try to do things on his own again. ] Yes, please, just be careful.
[not of him but of yourself is what he is asking, of course, he knows Gokudera knows that. The flames die, he means to move both his hands, he really does but it's like he's frozen in place as his wound brings itself back to right thanks to Gokudera.]
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Sure, he's met people here but Gokudera is all he really has. He can trust people but not the way he can Gokudera, such as sitting shirtless while he tends his wounds. There is no one else Yamamoto would show that small vulnerability to. Let alone the much larger vulnerability that is all too clear in how he's handled this. ] I feel kind of lost without it.
[He thought he lost baseball, he gave up, Tsuna saved him, gave him a purpose and one thing he has yet to admit out loud since getting here. Part of his manic, get involved in everything is that without that purpose, it's dark some times and he doesn't like that part of himself. When he has a purpose he can lose that part, it goes away and for the most part he keeps it at bay even now. Just every once in a while, when he slows down it feels like his hand is reaching for something but it keeps coming up empty. He does not know how to put it in words.
He does smile softly at the mention of Tsuna. Because he also knows, it's Gokudera's way of saying he would be upset if something happened to Yamamoto as well. He has more than the purpose Tsuna gave him, he just has to remember, he does not have to fulfill that purpose alone.] Okay...[How could or why would he refuse, he knows, despite his show of bravery, he needs Gokudera, probably more than the bomber will realize.
It's not fair, really Gokudera has to worry his lip that way, it's starting to feel like kryptonite to Yamamoto every time he does that. He thinks about it but doesn't mean to act on it when he reaches up, fingers curling under Gokudera's chin he gently touches the worried lip with the pad of his thumb. Please his eyes say, what his mouth takes a moment to get to, he meant to sit here, keep his hands to himself rather than risk Gokudera feeling uncomfortable and moving away. Instead, here he is thumb touching his lips, fingers on his chin and hands touching. Except, Gokudera's eyes said stay, he's trying to tell him he isn't going anywhere, he doesn't want to, no matter what. He found his way to tell him, he will talk, he will stay, he won't try to do things on his own again. ] Yes, please, just be careful.
[not of him but of yourself is what he is asking, of course, he knows Gokudera knows that. The flames die, he means to move both his hands, he really does but it's like he's frozen in place as his wound brings itself back to right thanks to Gokudera.]